I suck at blogging.
I would never have guessed the change of... not heart but of mind that has happened to me lately.
Things I was SO against and never wanted to happen have furiously taken over my thoughts.
It's stuff I didnt plan on. It's stuff that I would normally dread, but how having this Peanut has affected me the way I was thinking.
I don't know what to do. Pros & Cons lists are no help.
Am I giving in or is it really best for me and my family?
I think we need to make a decision sometime soon, but I dont know if either will ever be the right one.
I need someone, something to show me the way.
Off to go get more Peanut Butter...